Dear diary 15/06/2020

It is not always that i witness the rising sun.  I'm usually awake till the wee hours , i sleep late and then wakeup late.  I hate this habit of mine but it has got into me since lockdown and no matter how tired I'm, i just can't sleep.  It's not that i don't do anything whole day,  i do all the cleaning of my house and then in the evening i do brisk walk for atleast an hour and at times i dance too!  But guess what i have sleepless nights..  And this rising sun was clicked by me after waking whole night, when the birds started chirping I realized it's morning..  I went upstairs.. Took Hachi along..  Aah..' Hachi' , by the way he is my adorable kid.. The only person who loves me unconditionally and irrevocably 💖 

so yes I'm quite lucky and blessed in this case.  He literally understands me and is Always there for me.  It might seem funny but at times the reason of my sleepless nights is this young fella! " How can he love me so much and what if he leaves me one day or i leave him?????? " these questions haunt me more than nun and dolls in the horror movies 😅.

Chlo anyhow..  I sleep late so i wakup late although i do complete all my chores and stuff.  And then when I'm sitting alone i wonder what it would be like after 5 years..  What will i be doing.. Ok so i have five desires or dreams if u may call it..  Number one - do a mountaineering course,  

2 - live a happy life in hills

3 - have at least two kids and i want to be their best Friend..  I just want to raise my kids entirely opposite The way i was raised.  I was neglected and mistreated and i don't want to do that to my kids..  I will make sure they have a high self esteem and they will be given loads of love and respect.  Although i love my parents and they have given me all that I'm grateful for but i guess love and respect comes first and all the materialistic pleasures hardly matter..  

4- to help the needy

5- travel the world 

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So i hope with this rising sun.. I will rise and shine one day. I will achieve all my desired goals before i become a story in this chaotic world and another star in the sky  🌟